Hello World! I'm baaack!
For the past week I've been thinking about writing down my thoughts. Thoughts on fitness, lifting weights, eating healthy, body image, depression, time management, shopping, food marketing, business, and momhood. Soo much has been running through this crazy brain of mine that sometimes I feel like I'm in meltdown mode because of course, these are the things that are weighing on my mind, happening to me in the moment, and driving me kookoo. I figure the best way to get them out of my mind/off my chest is to write it down.
Its been such a long time since I have posted here, 2 yrs? A lot has changed, for one, since this is a health blog, I must admit that 1 year after I started my new job I gained thirty pounds. A year after that I gained another thirty-six pounds and gave birth to a healthy ten pound baby and now I am currently back to my pre-pregnancy weight, 230lbs. My son is currently 4 months old.
I am elated that I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight, sadly, at this weight I am considered obese. I feel it too, I am heavy and at 34 years of age it doesn't get easier to lose the weight. It gets harder. Since having my precious boy, I've spent hours online looking at the most efficient ways to lose weight, mostly fat, and to tone up. I've learned incredible things, and have seen amazing women push their bodies to the limit and get the results that they wanted or never knew they could have. I want to be that woman. I want to be strong, I want muscles, definition, and I want to be lean.
My GOAL is to get back to 200 lb. by August 2014, I know its totally doable if I give it my 200%.
By 200% I mean eating clean, lifting weights, and adding in cardio to that. Its that simple. Hah. I wish. It's going to take a lot of planning, preparing, and more planning, but planning is not really my strong suit. I think that if I get the planning down, I will CONQUER! Example, today is the second day of my second week of being IN this, and I binged all day, I had no food plan and no workout plan, and yesterday was no different. So starts the cycle. But, at 10pm, after eating only sugar today I got in a workout, and I feel fantastic, and tomorrow I will go full force. But I need to plan tonight before I hit my pillow or else I am setting myself up to fail.
So what's the purpose of this post? To let you know that I am in the game and I will 'HWEEN'! And hopefully to have some accountability to someone other than myself. Because I want it bad, but I have my moments-and that's where you come in.
Let me just mention the hardest thing for me is to want results so fast that its a huge disappointment when I don't see those results; and its worse when I think I am progressing then see a picture of myself and I look the same. It kills me and makes me discouraged. Now that I've written that down I feel like I can jump this hurdle next time it occurs and remind myself that it takes time, and only consistency in the plan will get me there.
Lastly, I'm gonna ask myself, "HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?" This should get me through this week. What you think?
