Accountability and eating in the dark.

2006, Northern California
coast, the only time I've worn
a wetsuit to surf and I felt moder-
ately comfortable.  Would love
to be here again, 165lbs.

I've been slowly gaining a few pounds every week, and its not just on the scale.  Last night I taught a Zumba class and I looked in the mirror and discovered that I had a nicely formed but horrifying muffin top.  It got there almost as if overnight, I know this is not the case because I have been slowly spiraling downwards since I got back from Hawaii.  Last week, i will ashamedly admit that I ate about 4000 calories a day with no exercise, and no remorse.  My motivation has dropped off to lala land and even though I know its important to eat right, and exercise I just can't find that "reason" to stay on top of it.

There were a few things that helped me as I tried to reach my previous goal, that had very little to do with motivation and more with routine that did help me accomplish my goals. 

1. Accountability- Everyday I tried to blog about my fitness/health goals and/or record my meals as a way of showing you what I ate.  I think I would be too embarrassed to admit to eating 10 pancakes for breakfast or put it in the blog, this is one way of being accountable.  Another way is to hook up with a friend and be accountable to each other.   

2. Food and exercise journal-Everyday I was writing my meals down and logging the amount of calories I was consuming.  At the same time I was logging my exercise sessions and the amount of calories I was burning.  This helped me to see if I had a calorie deficit or not, which further helped me to see if I needed to consume less calories and exercise more, or just exercise more.

3.Scheduling-By setting aside a time everyday to exercise I knew that like eating breakfast, or going to work, I had to go exercise.  And for me its extremely hard to get me to go exercise but once I'm there I enjoy it and want more.

I need to and will get on top of this.  I know as I see the lbs drop off again I'm sure that will spark my motivation and I will be a raging fitness/health and most of all weight loss addict-yet again.